HyunA has recently opened up for the first time ever about how she deals with depression, Panic Disorder, and Vasovagal Syncope.
On November 28, she took to Instagram to share a photo of the clear blue sky. In her caption, she opened up about how she felt growing up in the limelight and how it affected her mentality.
Here what she wrote,
“Hi, hello. To my fans A-Ing and also to those who are interested in me, I don’t know if this is the right choice but I thought about it over and over again, so I am going to tell you my story.
To be honest, I’ve always dreamt of being on stage since I was very young. I achieved my dream and received so much love and interest more than I could have ever imagined, and I think I went through a process of growth.
Maybe because I’ve thought I’ve had so many opportunities ever since I was young, I’ve always felt grateful and, to be honest, excited. At those times, I felt sorry. Times went on and after my debut I became an adult, and I thought I needed to take responsibility for everything I do, and that I can’t make any mistakes, I wanted to be someone that was everyone’s choice.
Because of my desire, I just looked straight ahead and kept running, I didn’t even know I was sick. But there were many good people around me and my fans who were always together with me, so I thought I was okay, I just put it off and said it wasn’t true and that I was okay, until I found out when I first went to the hospital in 2016 that I was ill mentally.
Like how you naturally take medicine when you’re physically sick, like when you have a cold you take a take cold medicine, I was always someone who was tough, so I couldn’t believe the diagnosis of depression and panic disorder. I think I didn’t believe it for a year.
Now, I naturally get treatment once every two weeks, and I try not to think about it badly because I have many people around me. But then, I experienced my vision getting foggy and I collapsed. I thought it must be a symptom of my panic disorder too and ignored it. However, a doctor advised me to go to a university hospital so I had some tests done on my brainwaves, and I found out that I have something called vasovagal syncope.
I was lost and it seemed that I had no option. I wanted to be on stage but I worried that if I keep falling down like this often, if people knew I was sick maybe they wouldn’t want me to perform. Since I was worried about that, I didn’t want to tell anyone. I wanted to keep my secret for a very long time.
I would feel nervous on my own and always felt sorry. When I was doing an advertisement or something else on my schedule, when I was doing an event, I was so sorry to everyone who had believed in me and entrusted me with that.
This is why I wanted to relieve those feelings even for a bit, and that’s why I am saying this honestly. Although I was cautious, I didn’t hide it and gathered up the courage to try and talk about it.”
In her closing statement she says she’ll always try to be brave and will love and take good care of herself, she says she’ll be courageous and honest.
Fans of HyunA were overwhelmed with tears upon reading her message. They’re so proud of her for opening up about her illness and for taking good care of herself. K-netizens also left many encouraging comments on articles that covered this subject.
What do you think of this?